I've accepted I will probably not get below 185. I’m okay
with it. I've given up hope on it. In the grand scheme of life that is not the
number that matters. It doesn't mean I’m going to diminish my physical
activities. It doesn't mean I’ll stop my work out routine. It doesn't mean I
won’t try new things in the future.
I am no longer looking for ways to “lose weight” or “trick
my body” or become someone I’m not. This is what my body wants this is what my
body gets. I have far too many other things stressing me out than the number on
the scale. I’m going to throw out the scale. Screw the scale. That being said I’m
not accepting advice on products or what might work. I don’t care if it does
work. I've accepted myself; given me some much needed TLC and mirror pep talks.
I've accepted my little beer belly, my cellulite thighs, my somewhat jiggly
arms and in fact admire them. They’re me. A part of me that I may never change
and that is okay. I’m done trying. I've been this weight and this shape for a
year. It’s done. I’m moving past it.
All that being said I follow several blogs/women on ye olde
Facebook – “This is Not a Diet - it's your life.” She lost 124 pounds – no pills,
rules, plans, shots, surgery or supplements and has kept the weight off for 3
years. “Go Kaleo” She lost 80 pounds and is now a personal trainer and a
nutrition and weight management coach. “Fit Mama Training” She lost a total of
90 pounds and grew with her body to love and nourish it. These ladies are great
and inspirational and honest. However they all have weight loss stories. Not everyone (read: ME) has a happy weight
loss story that has catalyzed their healthy life and body acceptance. So what
about the rest of us? I know I’m not as famous as these women but I've toyed
with the idea of creating a Facebook page for the rest of us.
What that means is there are a lot of frustrated women who
can’t lose weight for whatever various reasons. While the women above offer
great advice about loving and accepting your body, their bodies have gone
through massive changes. It’s hard for some of us to take that advice when the
scale hasn't budged in a year. I want to create a safe haven where people can
vent about whatever their health issues or weight issues or food issues are and
vent to someone who’s stuck like them versus someone who has lost basically
their unborn twin that was living inside of them. I have a special diet for
medical reasons it would be a place for anyone to share recipes for their particular
special diets, share motivational images or ideas or just to say “hey, I walked
a mile today, haven’t done that in a while.” I love following those 3 women but
I have no weight loss story and yet I’m inspired by myself. I think I’ll take a
poll on whether you think I should do this or if it will just be another page
lost in the hogwash of Facebook. If you've
made it this far, respond via comments on here or Facebook or even MFP. Once
again thank all of you for the support, love and advice but I've accepted
myself you should too.
2 comments:
Leila, I admire you for who you are and not what you could be. I see the stresses in life that you, at times, vent. It's a tribute to your strength that you continue forward with your goals and even with looking for new ways to challenge your body. I'd love to share this poem, it has some religious reference, but that aside...the meaning is beautiful and it came to mind whilst reading your blog: “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Beautiful, Thank you for sharing.
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